So yes.. a year later and you are back into my life… more than ever.. How did I not even notice and why did I let you..
I had a major surgery 5 months ago and my recovery was very slow so I was working for home a while..
Did you miss me? Did my absence awake something in you so you realised I mean to you more than you were previously showing..
But you started behaving differently towards me.. behaving with care, with love, showing it with little things, with words, with deeds..
On 6th July we had that BBQ day and you managed to arrange company to send a taxi for me so I could be there.. and then that day you were there for me all the time.. we played together and we laid on the grass not even noticing when everybody left.. and then while you were waiting for my taxi to arrive you.. kissed me…
Then perhaps a month later you came around my part of the city and you dropped in though you were in a rush… saying, you said you will so you did, was this saying you understood and became aware of your broken promises to me and that I had zero tolerance to bs.
I don’t know.
I know also that last year when you were promising me to come and be with me you were with her making babies, and you two have a little son now.. coincidentally two weeks ago i was leaving work and you three were packing in the car in front of the building. and by excuse to see the little one I looked at her, ad she, … she is gorgeous.. I liked her… I felt how stable she is, how solid person she is, she must be your rock and obviously is, but then in days to come, you were around me all the time..
Coming to my desk, coming to kitchen for a cup of tea with me, walking behind me up the stairs and sighing overmy legs or bootie or whatever, touching me purposely or ‘accidentally’ while passing nearby, kissing me again, caressing my legs under the table, what is this my love, whom I should not love at all…
Where did this come from? And why I opened my heart for you again?